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Sep. 18th, 2017 07:15 pm
malurette: (adorkable)
[personal profile] malurette
Mouahahaha la Nuit de l'Animation ça va être ce week-end et j'ai trop hâte d'y être !!
Le programme cette année est sacrément alléchant.

Je proposerais bien à tout~ le~ monde~ de venir avec, mais voilà, comme je compte bien y rester toute la nuit, je ne vais pas pouvoir héberger ceux qui seraient moins motivés et voudraient arrêter en cours de route. Et je ne sais pas si moyennant un oreiller, un masque de sommeil et des bouchons d'oreilles il est possible de dormir dans le théâtre pendant les dernières heures ?.

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Sep. 11th, 2017 06:13 am
hera: chel holdin' apple (Default)
[personal profile] hera
Interesting conversation with my sister in the car:

The constant, low key buzz of anxiety, like you're in a room with too many people and too much noise, and all you can ever do in life is distract yourself from it, so it's not overwhelming.

This is my constant baseline. This is hers! She was dismissive of my statement that maybe this is just the result of living fairly stressful lives 24/7, but I could say that the house was on fire and she would dismiss me: we've covered that before. It might just be a chemical thing, or an upbringing thing, because my dad got anxious and had panic attacks as a kid, and my mother is my mother.

But IDK. Point of this is just that I deal with this by chattering constantly, at myself if I don't have anyone else, because a constant stream of socialisation keeps my attention scattered just enough that I don't enter into the mental circlejerk of anxiety.

Which is why I'm on my phone, talking to people constantly, and probably why I get fluffy at anyone who's usually available to indulge.

Je sais qui tu es.

Sep. 10th, 2017 10:22 pm
malurette: (mad scientist)
[personal profile] malurette
J’ai trouvé le vrai nom de Siri !

spoil spoil spoil )

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Sep. 8th, 2017 11:48 am
hera: chel holdin' apple (Default)
[personal profile] hera
I guess it's kind of sad that so much of my self soothing relies on fiscal stability.

But it does feel nice to be able to look at my bank account to calm myself down. Like, okay, I'm doing okay. I'm really good at saving money, holding still and never spending it. Getting slightly teary over if buying Starbucks is fiscally irresponsible, given I have purchased ESO this month and am gonna get Hiveswap, is not actually.. super reasonable, because I can afford it, and I am /okay./

And I can throw more money at my parents for bills, so.

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Sep. 7th, 2017 08:07 pm
hera: chel holdin' apple (Default)
[personal profile] hera
godd, I'm just fucking up lately.

Latest mishap: four hundred calories yesterday, god only knows how many on Tuesday, except not enough, and now I get to deal with the mood crashing downfall of this. And the anxiety. And the whole body "NOPE" as I try to shovel food down my goddamn gullet.

Whatever. I'll get food, I'll crash hard in about an hour, I'll feel better in the morning.


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